haih... after qi ying tell me tht he want to change place to sit with jia ern, i have lesser confidince and i donno wad to do... even tht he told me he dont like jia ern, but i'm still curios tht why he want to change place, why he want to play her hand and why he want to close with her.. why everything also because of jia ern wan?? zhi xuen and wai kee break bcz of jia ern, cheng fhai is chasing jia ern until crazy and yen wing break with me bcz of jia ern too!! wad is the appeal of her and why all the guys are crazy for her??
since yee ai told me everything, i feel like vry hard to put down this relationship and i'm going to chase him back. but since qi ying told me everything tht happened in her class, i only realized tht actually he was not like tht love me and i donno wad to do... she said he play with he all the time somemore change place with shi yan and sit with her!!! wth... i dun know why tht he want to do all this to me.. or i did anything wrong??? besides, all of thm advise me to put him down but i cant do it!! the onli thing i want is him.. no more thing, just him...
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Enough Crying~^^
yoyo!! stand up and continue running~ never give up loving him and continue chasing him~^^ keep fit, learn baskeball, bowling and study~ all of these are wad he like... so i must do all of this and go and chase him~^^ although this is a stupid thing but it is fun~ i just want to get back wad i lost and wad i want!! i know he still loving me and i wont give up him^^ hope i can "get" him back before i birthday la~ and i hope everyone can support wat i'm doing... go go candy!! you can do it!!! he is yours!!!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Don't say GOODBYE
"Because i want you to forget me"
"Lets be special friends, but not more than that"
today is the 3rd month anniversary but also the break up day for me and him... can we dont be a friend? it's hard to me... how could i just be a friend with the ppl who i love so much and he is also the ppl who hurt me so much?? i dont want to say goodbye to this relationship and i want to continue it!! but i know it is impossible...i know there is the better guy is waiting for me but i dont want.. i just want him... if he promised me that we can keep this relationship for at least 1 year, he promised me that he want to go out for lunch with me, he promised me tht he want to buy a macflurry to me and he promised that he will not hurt me. but he didn't keep it... if he cant keep this promise, why he want to promise me so easily?? izzit i really make him like that stress??? or he just think tht this is just a game???
"Lets be special friends, but not more than that"
today is the 3rd month anniversary but also the break up day for me and him... can we dont be a friend? it's hard to me... how could i just be a friend with the ppl who i love so much and he is also the ppl who hurt me so much?? i dont want to say goodbye to this relationship and i want to continue it!! but i know it is impossible...i know there is the better guy is waiting for me but i dont want.. i just want him... if he promised me that we can keep this relationship for at least 1 year, he promised me that he want to go out for lunch with me, he promised me tht he want to buy a macflurry to me and he promised that he will not hurt me. but he didn't keep it... if he cant keep this promise, why he want to promise me so easily?? izzit i really make him like that stress??? or he just think tht this is just a game???
Sunday, May 24, 2009
i dont want to break up....
the darkest day for me today. he wanted to break with me... wad could i do??? izzit i did anything wrong?? or he nvr love me??? even i was prepared everything and waiting he break with me but my tears was still falling frm my eyes.
actually i dont mind he treat me bad, i dont mind he dont want to choi me, and i dont mind he dont say any sweet things to me but i just dont want to break with him. remember tht he said he wont hurt me but he hurt me so much today. why he cant tahan until both of us finish exam only break with me/?? he already tahan me for 3 month and why he can tahan 1 more week?? i hope tht he will regret and come back... but i can feel tht he is more happy after we break...i hope he happy always since we start this relationship even he told me tht he's just vry stress because of homework...i hope tht he is just joking with me but it's not. since we went to pudu girl school, i can feel tht everything is changing, but i dunno we can break this relationship so fast...izzit everything cannot become back like last time???
actually i dont mind he treat me bad, i dont mind he dont want to choi me, and i dont mind he dont say any sweet things to me but i just dont want to break with him. remember tht he said he wont hurt me but he hurt me so much today. why he cant tahan until both of us finish exam only break with me/?? he already tahan me for 3 month and why he can tahan 1 more week?? i hope tht he will regret and come back... but i can feel tht he is more happy after we break...i hope he happy always since we start this relationship even he told me tht he's just vry stress because of homework...i hope tht he is just joking with me but it's not. since we went to pudu girl school, i can feel tht everything is changing, but i dunno we can break this relationship so fast...izzit everything cannot become back like last time???
Saturday, May 9, 2009
i'm a idiot....
crystal have to go for class tambahan at school... this is a vry embarasse thing. since she never want to study properly,my mom blame all of this on me and carmen. so i was teach her math after dinner... crystal dont even want to write a 2 and 7 properly. besides, i gave her a same excercise for 3 time tht is 1+1 until 1+9, i teached her the way to count for few times but she also didn't concentrate on it... so i was started to get mad but i keep tahan...when i give her the fourth time excercise, i wanted her to do her own as a little test.but she jz draw the paper and keep erase it.. she dont even want to do it properly so i hit her and scold her. she was cried and carmen and my dad were scold me fiercely.... i dont know wad wrong i did and why i cant get angry on it!? y she dont want to study properly and they want to blame it on me?! even i teach or dont want to teach also get scold.. why they dont teach her themself and they want to blame it on me????
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
THE ROSE
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
And endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger
And endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
why why why?
1month... he didn't go out for lunch with me 1monthh already... he promised me tht he will go out for lunch wif me this week but he didn't keep his promise... so today i went for lunch wif yee ai they all (couple) and go back to school alone... it was so bored while i walk back to school... i hate the feeling much... but i hav no idea, who call tht he dun want to take lunch with me?! in ajimah, everyone was asking me the same question, it's really hurt! i never think tht he will do all this to me... after the australia trip, he had changed a lot... less messages, less comunicate and less concern... he always ask me whether want him to teman me go anywhere or not and he will say at least 1 "love u" to me a day. but now, he stop to call me dear and he will not send me any message when he reached home... and he will not teman me and wait for my mom's car... he keep asking wad happen to me but i was really really dunno how to answer him this question and it is so hurt to me... how could he treat me like this? y he cant treat me like how andrew treat yee ai or how he treat me at the beginning??? =(
Hopeful...
tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow,
i hope tht u can take your lunch with me,
i hope tht u can tell me what u thinking,
i hope tht u can keep your promise,
i hope tht u wont flirt with girls,
i hope tht u wont leave me alone,
i hope tht u will call me dear,
i hope tht u will hold my hand,
i hope tht u will share your mind with me,
i hope tht u will teach me the way to solve the cube,
i hope tht u will teach me science,
i hope tht u will share a lot of jokes with me,
i hope tht u will send more message to me,
i hope tht u will spend sometime to be with me,
i hope tht u will say I LOVE YOU to me everyday...
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
i hope tht u can take your lunch with me,
i hope tht u can tell me what u thinking,
i hope tht u can keep your promise,
i hope tht u wont flirt with girls,
i hope tht u wont leave me alone,
i hope tht u will call me dear,
i hope tht u will hold my hand,
i hope tht u will share your mind with me,
i hope tht u will teach me the way to solve the cube,
i hope tht u will teach me science,
i hope tht u will share a lot of jokes with me,
i hope tht u will send more message to me,
i hope tht u will spend sometime to be with me,
i hope tht u will say I LOVE YOU to me everyday...
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
Tell me
tell me what u want, i will give u,
tell me what u think, so i can know more about u.
i will try to tell u everything, if u spend some time for me,
i will try to know u, if u tell me wad is in your mind,
i will try to be with u, if u hope.
tell me what's the place tht i in your heart, or never have a place?
tell me how important am i in your heart, or i'm not in your heart??
tell me am i your valentine, or i am just your normal friend...
tell me tht u love me so much, or u never love me?
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
tell me what u think, so i can know more about u.
i will try to tell u everything, if u spend some time for me,
i will try to know u, if u tell me wad is in your mind,
i will try to be with u, if u hope.
tell me what's the place tht i in your heart, or never have a place?
tell me how important am i in your heart, or i'm not in your heart??
tell me am i your valentine, or i am just your normal friend...
tell me tht u love me so much, or u never love me?
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
Never, afraid...
Never want to beg you, but i just want to take a lunch with u,
never want u to give any promise, but the promise that u given, u didn't keep it,
never want to imprison you, but i just want to be with u,
never want to stress you, but i started to afraid.
Afraid, u will leave me,
afraid, u will look down on me,
afraid, u will angry at me,
afraid, u will hate me...
Never know why u angry, since u started to perfunctory at me,
never know why u sad , since u din tell me anything,
never know wad u want, since u never let me try to know u,
never konw wad u think, since u always block your mind...
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
never want u to give any promise, but the promise that u given, u didn't keep it,
never want to imprison you, but i just want to be with u,
never want to stress you, but i started to afraid.
Afraid, u will leave me,
afraid, u will look down on me,
afraid, u will angry at me,
afraid, u will hate me...
Never know why u angry, since u started to perfunctory at me,
never know why u sad , since u din tell me anything,
never know wad u want, since u never let me try to know u,
never konw wad u think, since u always block your mind...
=mac flurry= 6th may 2009
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