笑，只是掩饰心灵上的痛苦。

何年何月，
笑，
不再打从心里，
却代替了应酬。
笑，
只是为了掩饰心灵上的痛苦，
谁又会在该笑的时候愁眉苦脸？

Sad nia...

Amirul was shifted school... My first malay friend that I knew was gone.. Quite sad. I dunno what school he is going, why does he shift school and a lot.. I thought he was joking with me in the beginning. But I feel weird since I saw the tears in his eyes. I wonder, and I never think that he wasnt lying to me because I thought teacher halau him comes out from the class with bag or he is going back home earlier. When I went into my class, I saw Syahirah was crying.. And now I know it was true... T,T Goodbye Amirul... Hope I could keep in touch with you..

Form 4 Life.

Describe My Form 4 Life.. xD

- A lot of Homework-
- Challenge Mathematics & Additional Mathematics with friends-
- No extra time to play games-
- Lesser time to sleep!!-
- Taking Additional Mathematics-
- Burr~~~ English teacher is Puan Paramjit-
- Moodless-

A lot of homework..
It is unbelievable.. But it is true. T,T Nowadays, there is at least 5 homework each day. And my brain is always squeeze because of homework.. Anyway, I still have to do otherwise my teachers will kill me! =(

Challenge Mathematics & Add Math with friends...
Well, Math is the subject that i most pro. ( for myself larh). So, I wanted to get highest marks in my class for this 2 subject.. So, Gambateh nia..

No extra time to play games..
An lo.. Sad nia.. My range for the game getting lower and lower. T,T ... Restaurant city!! I want potatoes!! And cream. xD

Lesser time to sleep....
Everyday do homework until 1am.. Tired larh!! ! I started to have panda eyes.. =( Since no enough sleep, then i got fever.. Gonna cry jor lah!!! And mengantuk at class everyday.. =) Luckily teacher didnt scold.. And she let me sleep~~ XD

Taking Additional Mathematics...
One day, I do my add math exercise from evening until night. But still cant get the correct answer. Since I am to tire, so I lie on the floor to sleep for a while. After few minutes, Carmen woke me up. After I woke up, I could do all the questions correctly.. Walao?! Geng lerh me??

English teach by Puan Paramjit...
The first day taught by her is the first and second period of thursday. I was have a prefects meeting with Headmistress. So I skipped her class for 1 period. When I get into the class, I heard nothing. Nobody talk and everyone sit in their own place. xD Puan Paramjit was copying some notes and exercises but she didnt scold us because we were late for her class. After that, she started to joke with us and try to cope with us. Good rite? I started to wonder why the others were scared of her? ? Until yesterday, when she scold my friend, woah... Terrible nia.. Her voice is soooo "sharp" and loud.. Ofcourse everyone scared of her.. xD

Moodless...
Started from the day that I started to take over the job of Ketua Zon Leader, I started to become moodless and disappointed.. Most of my Form3 prefects dunno what is " automatic". They must wait for ppl order then they only start to duty. And their duty is so suck! Never control the students.. So, I always get shoot by M16 from somebody.. T,T Gek Lerh!!

什么？

漫无目的的，
等待一些没有结果的结果，
期待着不会实现的梦想，
盼望着不可能得到的续集，
我还等待什么？
我还期待什么？
我还盼望什么？

Sikap Camp

Was went to a trial exam camp which called Sikap Camp on Disember of 2009.

A very bad weather we had met. However, we still have to continue our camp. T,T

The first day of sikap camp...

I was reached to school at 9++ to prepare some stuff for camping. Woods, tents, sleeping bags, foods..... Around 12.30, Puan Hazira came to fetch us to the St john Primary school. When we were on the way to there, Jian Ming realize that we didnt bring something which is Banana Leaves!!! Anyway, we didnt go back and get it. Since the camp will start at 3pm, we just continue our journey to St John Primary. The school is quite small. But the field is larger than it. xD We met Woon Kit, and his friend- Marcus. They shocked. Because of our belt. We wore wrong belt!!! Should not be grey... WTF!!! I used 10.9o ringgit malaysia to buy it! Woon Kit brought us to the store beside of St John Secondary to get Bakau wood. But me and carmen still worrying about the banana leaves. Suddenly, we saw the banana tree beside of the pagar. HEHEHE~~ so, we decided to steal it.. xD But it is really hard to tear. So i used my long long nail to cut it.. xD but only get one.. Because my finger nail is really pain.. ><

MBS scouts were late. Since it was going to rain, our Kelana-- Daniel, allow us to built the tents in field. Who knows, it suddenly rain! =.= We all got wet!!! But we cant stop. The field is really worst!!! All of mud. a very very very wet field. And it is really lousy! We cant make a fire on the field, cannot dig hole, cannot do this, cannot do that! =.= Bla Bla Bla~ Gek Sei!!!

Daniel gave us a form to fill up too. And we really feel embarrase... Because we dunno what to write for the highest pangkat and the others... T.T

We started the camp about 3.30pm... First, we have to make a tiang for bendera at there, and then move our stuff into the tent. And cook our dinner at 5.30... I am really jealous MBS scout. Because they got bee hoon to eat!!! T.T And ours, fried potatoes, fried chicken chop, and fried eggs... ><

Luckily, Woon Kit came! From manikayu course.. xD So we chat with him outside the canteen. He shared his experience to us and we really learnt a lot of things.. ^^ Suddenly, Marcus came too! HAHAHA~ the noisy Marcus really talked a lot.. XD He loves money, so he keep telling us how important is the money and how he loves his money.. =.= O?? Danny came too.. So we keep chatting until 4am, and ate maggie cup with Marcus and Woon Kit.. xD Maggie cup is really nice larh... xD And we went back to our tent at 4.30am... xD

Second day of Sikap Camp..

Was drink milo and ate some HIRO cakes.. Because we didnt prepare any food.. =.= After that, Daniel keep remind us to serious... because the other kelana will come to take over his job.. T,T

but they are not really fierce too.. xD Learnt a lot of ikatan on today... xD And backwood cook after that. Wondering.. why are they use so long time to make the fire. Because we just us about 5minutes to make it.. Unfortunately, it was rain. =.= but the fire still can tahan for half an hour... xD pro lerH??? after that, our kelana allow us to cook all the fishes and drumstick for our lunch.. hooray!! XD

About 4pm, we started our ekspidisi to go KL tower! WOW!!! I love this! xD I brought my bag along. Raincoat, log book, compass, water, map, pens...... on the way to kl tower, it was really fun.. But we met heavy rain when we were still on the way. All of them didnt bring raincoat. Except me.. xD so they give me all of the phone to keep it in my bag. I wore my raincoat. To protect the phones and the instruction paper.. xD I look funny.. xD

Look!! hahaxxx~ we reached KL tower!!xS Took a picture when they were getting information.

Our mission is to find a tourist, to take a photo with them at "one malaysia culture park". Look!! I found a tourist from Australia! =D

Look! My tourist Miss Nike and her son. xD

Awh!!!! Look at the food stall!! I am soooooo hungry since it was rain, our foods were wasted. T,T and 10 of us shared 5 kampung fishes and drumstick... T,T

After we done everything, it was still early. So we were played in the jugle for a while and took some picture.. xD

About 5.50pm, we went back to St John!!! YEAH!! Mission Completed!!

Daniel allow us to take a rest until 8.30pm. And there will have a Malam Kebudayaan at 9pm. xD So, all of us go back to the field to cook for our dinner and plan for the malam kebudayaan. ^^

Since we have nothing to eat.. So we ask MBS scouts to share with us. We will shared 2 drumstick with them and help them to cook to make this deal. xD Luckily, they agreed! Very good rite??? kekekzz~

Around 7++, after we took our dinner, we started to plan for malam kebudayaan. A game and a performance.. T,T Damn! Nodody has idea.. So I was gave a very very cacat idea which is--- Drama. Few of us act the character of our trainer and show how they treat us. xD Anyway, we decided to share a kindergarten song with the others which is--- Row, row, row your boat and play a game which called Twister.

Finally, our mission was completed but we were ditegur by Daniel and a fatty( I dont know his name larh)... However, we had no more mood to care about this since we haven take bath for whole day!!!

Third day of Sikap Camp...

Last day of sikap camp, quite sad because it is going to bersurai after few hours. But think something positive, we can take bath afterward!!! wakakaka.. Suddenly... OMG! I haven finish my report for the ekspidisi!! WTH!? We were rush, everyone. Even skip for breakfast. hahax.. But finally, we didnt pass up the report. Since we have no enought time to complete it. We were had a interview and kawad tongkat. Noobie us.. I tot MBS should better than us a lot. But in fact, they are same with us, since their command is in english, so they need to change everything into malay. Hahaha..

Interview...

ARGH!! We had to sing national athem!!! WTF! Not only that, lagu wilayah, lagu pengakap...... T,T But luckily, I did nothing wrong. Safe.. xD The others, sang wrong lyrics and bla bla bla.. keke..

The camp was actually bersurai at 1pm++. But we went back 1hour earlier since Puan Hazira had something to do. So, our suffer camping was finish!!! HOOOORAY!! But we still cant go home until we cleaned up everything for our camping at school.. T,T!

WTF!

Went to school today prepare some stuff for the camping tomorrow. I was late. A lot. I was saw Carmen at the little jungle beside my school, to pick up the woods. So my mom drop me there to accompany/ help her to pick. WTH ! There is so much of mosquitos! About 10 of them were standing on my hand! *piak piak piak* I gave them a big big slap! ( I think they died) haha~

I dont dare to go there anymore, I begged Carmen to cut the woods in our school. But it is too little. What can we do is............. Ask Jian Ming and Zhee Zhoe to cut it! They were arrived. But went out again, to go Cyber Cafe. =.=

Some of the parents and the students came to school today. For buying books. AWH!! I saw her ! Koh Suit Yee! Grrrrrrr...
She is famous in our school. Everyone knows her.. Because she is TERRIBLE!!

I think she saw me. But I dont want to look at her. I dont want her to shout out my name loudly. She might break the peace. xD So I walk faster. As fast as I can... >< To "avoid" her...

Sometimes I am really pity her. Bully by the other students , even prefect. And everyone avoid her. Hope she can change her attitude and the way to make friends... GBH..

**Sigh**

Will not be able to online for 3 days later. Got to go a camping to take exams for King Scout. Rushing for my log books all the day. T,T Diary, first aid, and a lot... About 5 log books to rush.. =S

Was shop with Carmen for camping stuff today. Forgot to bring extra money. So went to Jian Ming's hse to get more money~ =D Unluckily, I got to go KLCC to repair my laptop.. So we just bought some stuff to fill up our first aid box, and kampung fish. =.= The price of the kampung fish is only RM3.90!!! WTH... I paid for RM6++ for it on last sunday!!! Yellow lotion, thermometer, triangular bandages, gloves...... =S
Bought a patrol badge too. Our patrol called "Tun Perak". Sounds weird... Why not Hang Jebat?? ... Anyway, last minute stuff... No more choice.. T,T

Wanted hang out with friends after their SPM. But no mood to chat with them nowadays. Don't know why.... No more Genting with friends, but with singapore cousins~ XD Better..