Where is the shoulder that I always rely on??

Yes. Where is the shoulder that I always rely on?? It's gone... Is this the answer?? But I feel that it is came back?? And it dont dare to close with me right?? When I feel tired, I always wish to rely on a shoulder.. His shoulder.. Its feel so safety and comfortable... Where is the hand that I always hold?? Is it gone too?? Yes it is.. It had gone. When the hand come back near, it has the other hand to block us... My heart didint break. It is still tough. Because it knows, there will come a day, he will come back. And never leave again....