灰了

初中杯要到了，好不容易才联络上公教代表争取报名表格。很兴奋可以再次参与比赛，而且所有校外东西都亲力亲为。即使只出一支队伍也无所谓，最重要是可以借此机会让外界知道我们学校也有辩论队的存在。可不幸的事偏偏得发生，我童军的彭亨三日两夜营却得跟初中杯赛撞日。很犹豫，很犹豫。终于，我决定了参加初中杯。所以，最近都为这比赛感到操心，什么友谊赛，都尽量安排。

就在昨天晚上，一件令我又生气兼伤心（可以说是失望）的事情发生了。我毫不介意用完我那只剩下的那一块钱的电话钱来招完所有的参赛队员在今天早上练习，准备辩论赛。可是，他们却告诉我说他们不想参加比赛了！ 妈呀！（请原谅我的无礼，可是我真得忍无可忍了）我这么辛苦的准备这场辩论赛，他们竟然说不要比了！我不知道该骂他们好，还是做什么好。于是我就拨电话给南振，希望他能帮我解决这事件。可他却怎么也拨不到电话给怡嫒，所以到最后还是要我跟他们商量。


好吧，我真的不懂应该怎样去跟他们商量，因为我知道，到最后我还是会大发脾气去骂人。如果说要弃权的话，我真的不懂后果是怎样。可能在别人的眼中会觉得我们是一支不团结，也不积极的队伍，连那一点点的比赛都不能弄好。而且后来听教练的语气，只觉得他对我们的队伍是非常失望，甚至开始觉得这支队伍会解散。有必要吗？虽然说时间会很赶，可是也没有必要弃权兼闹不和吧？

好灰。好灰...

Life just like a rubic cube..

Yea, rubic cube... Just like a rubic cube.. Colourful, and blank..

Nothing is cannot be solve. Just depends on how u solve it. My life is just like a rubic cube. I don't know how to solve it. So i try and try. Because this, is my rubic cube... Is there any formulae?? Yes it is. Life is also the same.. I caught no balls for the formulae. So, I have to learn. Learn to solve, learn to change~

Are You Ready？

你准备了吗？　距离公交杯的赛日就仅仅剩下两个星期了！！邵佳娜的华文学会辩论队员，你准备了吗？



今天辩论练习的时候，忽然间接到一通未命名电话。我心里吓倒了, 是谁？由于平常都很少打电话给我，所以这次真的给吓倒了。“喂？请问是candy吗？” 哇~好赞的声音...应该是美女吧？“我是公教中学辩论队的代表。”哇！这更加恐怖。他们怎么会有我的电话？信应该还未到手啊？还是我跟他们心灵相通？这不重要，反正接到他们的电话，我就很开心了！



讲完电话后，那位美女（不懂她的名字啦~）要求我SMS我的电邮，学校网址，以及学校地址给她。“好。好。好。”也不知道我说了多少次好。反正可以send给她就是了。当我type完所有的资料后。。。 妈呀！我的臭手机竟然没有把他的电话给记录起来！我疯了～真的疯了．．．　



臭电话！我发誓，当我有一天在储到钱的时候，我一定会把你给丢掉！



Today was went to school for debate practice. Feel so good because I got long time didnt debate already.. Eee? Today is also prefect AJKs meeting wor.. xD hea hea hea.. Can see him today arh!!! =D I wait and wait. From 11 until 12.. Why he haven come one??? Never mind, I continue to wait.. ... ... ... WTH?! It's already 1 o'clock! He is still haven appear!! I "fui" jor... Haih... T,T After that was went to Endah Parade ( carrefour sri petaling). With coach and the other 5debaters. xD Why we go there? take lunch lur.. xD Kah Chun said he wanna play bowling after we take lunch. But when we go there, stupid.. RM7++ for a game?! Nobody wants to play already.. xD I tot we can use student card. But it is only until 2pm!!! Gek sei.. =.=

Friend, or Not?

Right. Friend or not? I am thinking what is my fault. Keep thinking for long time. I wonder. I wonder what I did wrong? What is my fault???? I caught no balls..

Today I am staying in discipline room again. For the whole morning until finish school. Well, I know what I want now. Not such friend. But peace.. Around 8, they broke my peace in that room. Suddenly I felt unsafety. Why? They were my best friend, but why I had that feel??? Somemore I hope that they can leave the room as fast as possible. Maybe I had fallen in love with peace.. =(

Finally, they left.. But my peace, didnt come back. I am keep thinking that why were they dont want to talk to me? Why they didnt ask me to play badminton? Why I cant even join into their conversation? Why everyone like avoid-ing me?? What I did?? Did I ate thm?? Or what??

Maybe is that case. Why? I am keep asking me why? At least 10 times in one minutes. How come they became so manja?? How come they changed so much? Even more evil than me. Well, my choice is leave them. Leave them and find the other world--- my own world. I want to leave here, bring along my peace, bring along my love.

Do you think that I am manja? Or evil??? Please leave some comments, to tell me what is the personality of me..How do you think of me? Any disadvantage or advantage?? Just tell me my personality... THANKS..

I love this story/ news.. read it~ xD

（新加坡）最近網上盛傳一首感人情歌，有傳情歌女主角患上罕見皮膚病，她在病入膏肓時，耗盡全身力氣，只為了錄制這首情歌送給男友。
這首情歌《最後一次》至今已吸引到61萬5000多人觀賞。

根據網上傳言，這首長達3分鐘的情歌是由一名17歲女生所寫。
傳聞指，這名女生有可能是新加坡人或大馬人，女生有一名要好的男友，兩人原本打算大學畢業後就結婚，但有一天，她在學校接受體檢時，發現血蛋白有異常。
原來，她患上一種非常罕見的皮膚病，皮膚會越變越嫩薄，最後會因為皮膚太嫩，承受不了肌肉和血管的壓力而撐裂，造成死亡。女生得知自己的病情後，開始寫下日記，記錄她的一生。


男友失足墜山死
女生發現，男朋友是她生命中最重要的其中一人，於是，她決定寫一首情歌給男友。
當詞曲完成時，她要求一名朋友幫她錄歌。已病入膏肓的女生知道，如果她用力唱歌，喉嚨和皮膚都會出血，但她還是堅持自己唱。
網上傳言也指出，因為女孩愛看日出，所以男友決定要走遍世界，把日出的美景都用攝影機拍下，以紀念女孩。
女生去世後，男友決定四處去看日出，但是，在大約1年後，他在一次上山看日出的時候，不幸失足墜山。
根據網絡傳言，當他被人發現時，屍體已經腐爛，但相機里卻充滿朝陽霞紅的美景。

21st October 2009

I dont know how to describe my mood today... It is confuse. When I woke up in the morning, I am still care about the care which was happened yesterday.. Feel so upset.

This is a boring day.. Really boring.. All the form 3 students are not allow to go back class and must be stay at the hall... But me, I prefer to stay in discipline room.. Discipline room is my little world in school ( as important as my hse). From January until now, most of the time I am staying in that room..I think I already fall in love with the room?? I don't know. U know why? I love peace.. I can feel peace in the little room, especially alone. But I hate the stupid voice. The stupid construction voice.. I lost my peace... So long... T,T Until finish school.. But I feel happy. At least I can sleep, read and play in the room.. ><

In the recess time, I was chat with Shye Wei and Su Wen. About the prefect night.. Su Wen was getting crazy..Because of her dress. She said she loves her dress.. I think she would like to marry the dress too... xD But her face was funny.. Really.. >< Look, I am still good. At least I still got the other friends accompany me.. And Timothy. Thanks for accompanied me so I didnt fall asleep in the room again.. =D

After school, went to aquarium near by my house there. To buy a banglo for my son.. xD Dont misunderstand... It is my tortoise. Feel so sorry to my son too.. Since his partner was died and I didnt buy him anymore partner.. xD But I feel that it is really feel uncomfortable in its new house. Since it was like so blur... And it duno where to find its food.. I think it rather go back to its tiny hse... Pity my son... T,T

Embarrass..

"今天，我破产了。”
I am bankrap...

This morning, I sent a message to ask Nicole them whether they want to go to school tomorrow or not. Second message, she asked whether I can pay RM24.50 for Yee Ai's birthday present. I was shock. I am thinking: y it past so long already still got to buy present for her? Since I have no money, so I decide to claim it from my parents.But I got scold. Even confiscate my money. Until now, 4.50pm , they are still scolding.. T,T

After that I decided to leave it. I dont want to hear anymore complain and scolding anymore. I am alone in my room to think an idea to reject Nicole. But it is so embarrass. So embarrass. I am tired. So I tried to close my eyes, and take a rest.

While I was playing gym, I heard a voice-- Carmen's voice. She was telling my mom something. But seems like complaining something. So, I tried to eavesdrop what they're talking. I heard Carmen was telling my mom that she called someone of them and scold them... ( Dont ask me who, I dont know. ) I started to on fire. I was so confuse. Why they want to campur tangan in this case?! zz... They are trying to ruin my little dreams... No wonder I have less and lesser friends.. Finally I knew... It's because of her... T,T